Sunday, 22 February 2009

Saturday, 07 February 2009

Wednesday, 04 February 2009

  • I think we dream so we don't have to be apart so long.

      you called me and i answered.
    you told me that you weren't mad at me anymore.
    that you forgave me.
    i was so happy. ecstatic.
    and you said that you were right down the road.
    you wanted to meet at a restaurant.
    i arrived and saw you sitting at a table.
    so i walked over and sat down beside you.
    you gave me a present.
    i leaned over and kissed you.
    it felt so good to have things back to normal.
    oh, how i missed you.
    you smiled, and told me to open my present.
    i started unwrapping it.
    right when i was about to see what it was,
    i woke up.
    instantly felt tears coming.
    realizing once again it was just another dream.
    that in reality we still weren't okay.
    i wanted so badly to fall back asleep
    and continue the dream.
    but i couldn't.

Tuesday, 03 February 2009

  • Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.



    forgive me.
    i want things to go back to the way they were before.
    i hate us not talking.
    i hate you not looking at me.
    i hate not hugging you.
    i hate how everything is now.
    & i hate myself for making it that way.
    i'm sorry if i hurt you.
    well you've got me back.
    now you're hurting me.
    i want us to be best friends again.
    do you know how it feels to fall asleep thinking of the good memories and realizing they don't exist anymore, to have dreams of things being okay again, perfect, but then waking up and realizing it wasn't real, it was just a dream, and to start crying knowing that things are still all shot to hell.
    i know how it feels. it sucks to prefer dreaming over reality. to want to go back to sleep and dream the same dream over again, just so i can talk to you, and laugh with you, and hug you.
    it sucks to look at a picture filled with good memories and tear up knowing you don't have that anymore.
    if it was anyone else i'd probly just say fuck it.
    but i need you in my life.
    you don't know, you don't understand, how much you mean to me. how much feelings i have for you. how much i love you. how much i miss you.
    i'm not ready to give up on us.



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